Well then.

It's close to 6pm on this day of my father's birthday. Ironically he isn't here and I'm waiting for my mom to pick me up to go to his birthday dinner.

Hmm.

Not really sure what to write. I have plenty of things to write, but I'm not sure what exactly to write about now. Maybe my fabulous new clothes.

Shit has been happening. I think I'm caught in that spot between traditional thinking and free thinking. Conservative culture and liberal culture.

It breaks my heart, really it does.

It hurts that she doesn't understand me. I don't even feel like she's trying. She just instantly rejects my thoughts or opinions once they don't sound right to her. If she sees this though, she'll probably yell at me for putting words into her mouth again. Unfortunately this is exactly what she's doing. I just put it in a very harsh way. It hurts even worse that we used to be so close together.

I'm pretty sure there's something I can do, but I've tried being nice and friendly to no avail, so I'm done with this shit.

There are a lot of things I probably could have forgiven in the past, but not now. Now I'm my own person so I'd like to have my own opinions, thanks.

Hahahaha my parents would probably scream that I'm too much influenced by American culture. Ironically I was put in ADP by them so really they're got no meat to that. Also it's called voicing out. Generally asians tend to conform. I don't want to anymore.

I think I'll just go camwhore in my fabulous new clothes now. :\

I'm Supposed To Be Writing Poems

In direct contrast to my previous post which my Other Father Andy has so gleefully... shared... a few weeks back... I suppose I can say that everything now has changed... greatly.

Well.

My month of depressingly pathetic Facebook statuses and whiney complaints is finally over, and I am still quite embarrassed to believe I actually wrote and posted stuff that seems like it came out from a bad, cliched chick flick/shojo manga/romance novel.

It sort of makes me shrivel up on the inside while banging my head on a hard surface repeatedly. But it's an important step I took, I guess, so I'll keep it just to remind myself of all the shit I went through. And to remind the Boyfriend as well.

Shockingly enough, I am not single anymore. It was super weird thinking that last week, but I think I'm a little more used to it now. Hahaha.

(I'm starting to think I should private my blog now, SO YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO STALK ME, ANDY.)

Skipping to a completely different topic, I absolutely adore Creative Writing because it is fabulous and wonderful. I feel like a different person altogether after taking that class. I think I grew up quite a lot these few weeks, and understood myself a lot better. I think crying over yourself makes you do that. Understand yourself. Then you cry. Then you understand yourself. Again the cycle repeats.

It's a little past 1am and I'm supposed to be writing poems. I love poems, they're just so precious. Hard to understand at times, but precious nonetheless. That being said I dread letting other people review them, despite how much I enjoy writing them.

Just because I like writing does not mean I particularly enjoy people reading my shit unless I intend for them to read it. Most of the times I don't. Other times I write fan fiction. HAHAHAHA.

Listening to music was supposed to get my creative juice flowing and my writing gear kick in. I suppose it did, only it kicked into the wrong gear. LOL. Poems! Instead I'm blogging, (which was sorely in need of an update, true) while Roxas' theme plays in the background.

I want to sleep.

嗯

很久没有写blog了

其实是应该做功课的。。。但是心烦

心很烦

烦到像B级影片的夸张。

（（悲

最近又睡不好了，很想全部怪你的，但又不是你的错。

啊，其实一切都是你的错。



很想讨厌你。明明就是一个超级白痴，可是却如此的可爱。。。天啊，我中毒了！

慢慢的发觉自己笑不出了，吃不下了，病起来了。

看来这个毒也中到蛮深的。。。我知道。

人生中第一次为另外一个人抓狂到酱，你什么感觉啊？有没有自满？有没有厌恶感？

若你没有厌恶感。。。对不起，我有。我痛恨现在的我，这个没有笑容、需要人家依靠的我。


为什么你说不出我想听的话？为什么我只能想到最坏的结局？

为什么我无法再好好和你面对面讲话了？


对不起
我毁了这个友情
我对不起你
也对不起自己

Midnight Updates

I actually have a lot of things to update... The trip I took with my family to Tanjung Sepang (I think...?); a over-the-weekend Penang trip, that Wednesday night when we ventured to the Taman Connaught pasar malam... I can't believe 3 weeks has already passed since then. WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING OTL

This week is going to be a busy week for me... A lot of Sociology research due in the near future, my History 102 debate on Thursday, History 102 Mid-terms on Friday, Malaysian Studies video due sometime soon...

Sometimes I wished I didn't procrastinate, but then again I'm pretty sure if I didn't procrastinate I wouldn't be as efficient as I am today. Hahaha. Excuses! I am so used to doing last-minute work. It's like if I don't do my work last-minute I'll be confused and lost.

But okay no, I've really started reading up on History now okay. :( I can't wait until this Saturday! :D For our Sociology community service my class decided on helping out the Soup Kitchen! We'll be patrolling the back alleys of KL scouring out homeless people and giving them food. C: I would probably make me feel really good and stuff. :D Like one of those saint-people. Like Mother Teresa, only with less contact because I despite how selfish this would sound I really am not looking forward to touching them. :\

I haven't even started doing the props for the TWEWY cosplay... /headdesks Although tbh it's not really a rush, but every time I see that pack of paper clay sitting on the coffee table I'll feel slightly bad about it and stuff.

Then I see the doll's dress next to it and I wait patiently for my plastic clip rings to arrive. C: Yay!

Oh god this was supposed to only be like a super short update/post because I'm half-way doing my Sociology research. :C Uh. But at the same time I can't find any relevant articles as of yet so... Oh well. I guess my ranting skills bleed into typing as well. Tsk.

18th Birthday

21. June. 2012.

Officially best day ever. ♥

I swear to god I was downing so hard on the eve of the 21st. DOWNING. SO. HARD. xDD

You guys. I swear I love you guys.

My god Louis I can't believe how I lived without you in my life before. Hahaha!! Skyping with you and trying on my clothes and cheering me up while I was being a general whiny bitch LOL AND YOU PUT UP WITH MY SHIT. OMG. LOUIS I LOVE YOU. ♥ And right on the dot you gave me my first legit b'day wish! Jeez! You adorable bastard you! xD Ahahaha, webcam hugsssss!!

So in the morning, what to do but to CAMWHORE LOOOOL. xD This time I went for more boyish clothes.

Yeah fuck it I was moody in the morning hence THOSE DEAD EYES YEAH IDK MAN. xD

And then... OMG in uni everyone was so nice and wished me happy birthday... I feel so loved! ♥ Although I think the TAS people planned something I missed? I don't know... but still! xDD Random ass talk about dengue and blood types with Nadzmi! LOL!!

Hahaha then had lunch with Sammy... You were so mean to me!!! xD Was Mehdi in the joke too? Was that why he kept saying the conversation was amusing? xDD Tak Min probably was laughing her butt off when I left wasn't she! Jeez, you people! xDD

Then met up with Rex who showed me his flash video... To Key Of Awesome's Adam Lambert parody which is ingenious and legit amusing. ALL THOSE VIDS LIKE WHAT OMG LOL.

Went to M'sian Studies where I was a dick and fell asleep right after my own group's presentation (Group 2, THANKFULLY.) HAHAHA. Still managed to take a pic with bestie Alison though! :D LOL primary school friend turned bestie! :DDD

Then we went to Sunway Bubba Gump for dinner... Where we managed to meet up with Candee!!! OMG GURL SO LONG SINCE I'VE SEEN YOUUUU!! Too bad we didn't manage to talk much!! >m<

And... OMG SURPRISE OF MY LIFE. AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU GUYS ACTUALLY FOOLED ME OTL WHAT WAS I DOING. xDD I was downing so hard because I thought Sammy and Leanne were like "Oh I can't make it... sorry." WHAT!! WHAT WEIH.

They came out of nowhere and SHOUTED IN MY EAR. GUYS. And shoved a bag at me. GUYS I COULDN'T EVEN SEE PROPERLY THROUGH MY TEARS OMG I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH.

Leanne and me~! :D

AHAHAHA IDK MAN IDK

And oh god THE SHOES. The friendship shoes OMG GUYS I STILL CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I AM LOVING YOU GUYS RIGHT NOW. ♥

Look at that!! Those are one pair of damn beautiful shoes!!

We so, so totally need matching shoes.

The people at Bubba Gump gave me a pretty awesome birthday chant lol. It's amazing tho, how many people who share the same birthday have decided to celebrate at Bubba Gump! xD Oh and guys the cakes!!! Nggghhhhhh chocolateeeeeee!!!

Aww lookit the happy couple!

Andy! Your face!! xDD

Yeah? Yeah??? xD For some reason the conversation turned to gay sex and being single IDK LOL. I think the margarita got to my head! But it was good, the margarita. Expensive, but good. Sweet Jesus I need to go to a gay bar some day and order all the gayest drinks I can find. xDD

And just when I thought the surprises were over... I opened the door to my room to find THIS.

HEHEHE I PUT MY FEET IN THERE. 8D

Hahahaha guys I feel even worse about missing the gathering now!!!! Ahh!! See you guys in eight (or less) hours!!!! I have no idea how they ninja'd into my house in the afternoon BUT GUYS GUYS GUYS THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

This is seriously, seriously adorable. ♥ OMG how can I ever eat them!!! xD Can't wait to see you guys!!

Holy shit it's already past one am, hahaha perhaps the reason I'm not sleepy is the margarita... xD (I managed to drive myself home! Amazing feat, no?)

Thank you guys for giving me the best 18th birthday ever!!!! ♥

Oh and to the awesome 94 people who gave me birthday wishes on Facebook... THANK YOU!!! ♥

We Work In Threes

I feel as if it has been ages since I've last seen my two favorite girls, and when I think about it, it has been so long.

It is rare for friendship to last six years past they day we all separated- indeed, we all went to different schools and hung out with different people. We didn't even try to keep in touch for months. It's just that whenever holidays draw near, either one of us would pick up the phone and text the others. "When r u free? Go crash Ru house lor." would be one of the best texts to ever receive.

Due to SPM last year, we missed the chance to properly hang out- until Monday, exactly a week past Ru's birthday. And also because I have become the designated driver for most outings, we were suddenly open to more places to go, more flexible times.

And of course we took advantage of that.

ST and I first hung around Times Square, where we wanted to buy Ru's present. Halfway through we ended up shopping for clothes, so we got matching shirts for us all.

 I despair at my figure compared to those two.

As you can see, we are shamelessly pimping the US of A. LOL.

We did see a really pretty Union Jack bag, but since we weren't sure whether Ru would like it, we left it at that. (Only later did we learn she DID want a bag, so we despaired again, but we'll go to Times Square during the May holiday, 'kay?)

And because I was deathly afraid of being stuck in traffic jams, we left early for Ru's house. We got there super early, in the end. So to entertain ourselves, we did what we could: play with the cameraaaaaa! xD

...Not only limited to cameras, of course.

Took even MORE photos.

We were actually kind of lost in Mid Valley, since none of us was sure what to do there. We sort of drifted around the top floor, as Ru wanted to watch a movie, yet both ST and I had just about finished watching all the recent movies. Ru went all == on us. We got ourselves some Chatime, which was a rather painful experience to recall...

In the end we decided to go bowling. It was one hell of bad day for me, 'cuz my marks was exceptionally terrible. Who goes gutter 4 rounds in a row? I never want to go to Cosmic Bowl again, for the love of god. xD I'm going to stick with TS bowling alley. ST got two strikes though. Now let me go wallow in shame for a while before I come back.

Dinner was Domino's pizza. We tried the new Extreme Edge crusts, which was surprisingly good, although a tad bit salty.

And since we were waiting for the food, we took... even MORE PICTURES. Haha! xD

LOL WAT. xD

(Tbh I like the third frame the most. xD)

Current FB cover pic. :3

"Okay, so how do you use this? What do you press?" Yes, I really don't know how to use anything that isn't an iPhone. /FAIL

FINALLY, FOOD! xD

Ah~ it was amazing to just catch up on everybody's lives again, after so long. So many stories to be told. So many things to talk about.

So many weirdest antics ever. Like taking pictures in front of an open stall and literally blocking the way. xD

Yay for best friends for life! :D

ILU ♥

Battleship

First let me say that this movie has no plot at all. There is a general idea (aliens invade earth, humans fight back with ships) but in terms of plot, it is so riddled with holes and wtf moments that it really is better to just take everything at face value.

But because I'm an asshole, I shall list the plot holes that my friends and I have discussed, together with generally funny stuff that came up.

• main character breaks into a convenience store for a chicken burrito, because obviously he needs to climb the roof and break many things. The police are called in, everything becomes highly dramatic, and the main character gets tased. 
• Explosions.
• Explosions, then stop, rewind, and explode again. To quote Joel, "reversing time when you're caught in an explosion seems legit."
• The aliens have plastic-y beards. Wtfuckery exists.
• Apparently large battle ships can drift on water, much like how a car drifts on asphalt. I don't think anchors were meant to be used like that.
• Satellite dishes sends signals every 24 hours? Proposed time: 4.37am. What happened 4 hours before the time period? Hopper using the glare of the sun to blind aliens. This reminds me of the song Jetlag. "Figuring out the time zone's making me craaaaaazy!" Of course.
• Big alien yo-yos crash into Hong Kong. After causing great destruction, it is not mentioned ever again. For that matter, Hong Kong is not mentioned either.
• Fighter jets bomb a sinking ship. Explosions upon explosions indeed.

There are many others, but just trying to recall the story makes my head hurt. It's all in all a fun movie, particularly with a bunch of friends, but it's easily forgotten and shallow. Enjoy the visual vomit.